Once again I find no sleep all night, my mind is spinning so many different ways to proceed with my life...and not so fast that I get myself into a jam.
I had my son over on Thursday and yesterday spent the day recovering. He is a good young adult at 23, yet after being alone for nearly 5 years I am still challenged by his behavior.
During my waking hours I developed a plan of how to move forward with my life, at the same time I need to consider my son's life after I'm gone, he will have no family. Who knows what his future will be, for me and my sanity I want a place for him to live that is totally paid for and he will feel safe. I've no control over his life, and do my best to not Tell him what he should or should not do...rather let him know i'm here for him and he can talk or ask me about Anything.
Over the last couple of days I've done well with self care and my house. Made some phone calls that I didn't want to make, went on fb to help me with social support, and have incorporated more fruit and fluids in my diet. Spent time out doors and did some yard clean up and a walk about looking at my gardens.
Today I'll be doing self care..period, my son will? be here tomorrow, sent him an e-mail but have not heard back yet.
Feeling better about myself and life as the clutter in house and mind....yes still there, but baby stepping and hoping I'll be walking instead of crawlng soon. Back on Monday.