Lack of sleep, poor eating, poor fluid intake, I don't feel like doing anything, I don't care enough about myself to do what I know will help my physical or mental health wellbeing. Accountability, no one will see or know when I stay in my pj's, don't brush my teeth or don't shower. No one will see if I don't keep my house clean or wash my dirty dishes, or do my laundry. Expectations too high or too low. Not feeling worthy, shame, guilty or taking on too much. Clear boundaries to protect my mental health, to open my heart enough to understand with out taking on the energy of feeling of the person. Taking Risks to have someone see behind my safety smile that I wear, sometimes with friends in the past, online to not be a debbie downer, rather positive even when I'm not feeling positive, not being true to myself, not taking care of myself, expressing my own wants and needs...Silence. Fear based thinking, reactions of others, low self esteem when making decisions about relationships or in any area of my life.
I can easily say to myself, "oh I'll do it tomorrow" as I don't work...tomorrow comes and nothing is done. I'm very challenged by my computer usage...games, research, utube, TED talks are the main culprits.
up, dressed, meds, fluids, snack, declutter give away, apt therapist and hand therapy, shopped at cvs. Dishes, barrels back. Laundry? Not pushing myself, only 3hrs sleep, baby steps...progress not perfection.