I am 19 years old. im 5'9 and weigh 235 pounds. i feel like a fat discusting pig, and i cant even stand to look at myself in the mirror. I KNOW that if i could loose weight i would feel SO MUCH better about my self. My weight effects so much of my life. my everyday. my relationships. everything!!! im crying while im writing this because i think to myself. oh... im going to start walking. eating better....the usual positive things.. but when it comes down to it. i still drink my mountain dew everyday. my fast food everyday. i know is bad. I KNOW its bad. i know while im ordering it.. and paying for it. i love it while i eat it and regret it when im done. im tired of living my life HATING my body. i dont want anyone to see me with my clothes off. not even my boyfriend of 3 years. :( everything suffers. i dont know what to do anymore. im driving myself into depression!
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