I want to get down to about 190... we did BMI's at school once and they said that my ideal weight was 175 but I am 6'2ish and I think that I would look sick at that weight...so for now I am shooting for 190 but if I still look bad I will go for the 175. I'm not really sure how much I weigh because I am honestly scared to know...I have started going jogging/walking like 4 or 5 times a week and am semi vegetarian, which is where you only eat meat once or twice a week and the rest of the time you are a vegetarian. It's all really hard though because no on e in my family takes me serious, but I am tired of being known as the fat kid...its so bad that if I do try to do physical activity my entire family makes a big deal about it which causes me to get embarrassed so I stop... For example, over the summer we had a family reunion and a lot of the family decided to start a game of volleyball and at first I didn't play but my sister was tired of playing so I agreed to take her spot...when I stepped out on the sand everyone, except my sister and one cousin, started talking about me...saying stuff along the lines of "Oh my God!! He is actually going to do something that involves putting some effort forth..." I just laughed it off....but what they don't know is that when they say stuff like that it honestly hurts...I go around with a big smile on my face and just keep all my feelings bottled up inside....I honestly cry myself to sleep almost every single night.... Thank You for taking the time to listen to my rant....I would be happy to return the favor if you need to get something off your chest...
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