I think about all the times my exS had said he understand how I feel, but yet he goes on like he never understood anything. Its so painful that I cant make him understand how much he has hurt me and still goes on. He treat me like a sex object and it feels like I am reduced to not being human anymore, in his eyes. I have read everything about that we cant make them understand how much they have hurt us, still I wish I could make him understand. I know I cant and it hurts so bad. I am getting so sad thinking about it. I have never said to him how much he hurt me and said what I really mean...I have just tried to make him understand but not on a deeper level if you know what I mean, I always thought he would understand that my tears would tell him..because he said he understand when I cried. its like I wish I had done this from the beginning, tell him how I feel, but you all know how it is, we are so in love and deny reality and let us be abused and keep silence about what we really feel until its too late. It hurts that he says he loves me when I know he doesnt, deep inside I hoped it was true, but I know its not because his actions say so, so it hurts that he says he loves me and then he always act obviously that he don´t. I just wish he would be able to understand and mean it.
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