Such a strange medicine for anxiety, can cause depression, but seems to spark a different response from one individual to another. This med works great for me, but I am scared to take it, because I am afraid I might not be in control of my environment, if I do. The anxiety sits on my shoulders constantly, weighing me down and keeps me from enjoying any real pleasures in life.I've been told I am a neurotic person. I've never been told how not to be one. Anxiety has kept me from having friends, maintaining a normal sex life, and kept me from being able to work in the public. I feel that I have to be in control of everything going on around me, or things won't operate smoothly. Everything has to be in it's place, or I feel chaotic. I cannot live with chaos. My hands shake so bad, I had to give up painting, and drawing.The meds help, if you don't mind living in a fog.
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