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Helo all. I think most of you may think I am a horrible person. I just returned home from afghanistan after 10 months and had a nervous breakdown while home. I paid for my own care until it was time to go back. I have had a couple of tours with an infantry unit and couldnt go back. The army locked me up in a mental ward and pumped me full of pills. When I was released, I ran. I am not sure if I am awol or deserter or what. But I do know I can to it again. The dreams, no sleep, bed wetting, no eating, anxiety, and terrible family relations. Im scared and if you want to kick me out of the community I understand.
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Have you seen a doctor (psych) since returning??
I can understand your fright--I would be scared, in your circumstances. You can contct a chaplain at the nearest base and they will help you get back into the hospital for further treatment, if that is what you need, or back with your unit, if that is what they want for you. As I am no doctor, I would never presume to tell you whether you are suffering from PTSD, nut I would say that you could definitely use someone to talk to and help.
I am the wife of a Vietnam Vet that also has dementia. I am not a dr but you seem to have the classic symptoms of PTSD. You need to get to the nearest VA Med Center asap to get the proper treatment. When my husband finished his tour of duty in Vietnam, he was never debreifed. He served during the Tet offensive and fought at Khe Sanh. When he went stateside, he couldn't handle being away from his fellow veterans -he felt guilty leaving them even though he had been wounded (and refused the purple heart) and served honorably. He went awol and served time in the brink but at that time there was no diagnosis of PTSD. He left the corps and immediately applied to be a fireman and was one for 28 years. During most of his post military time, he suffered as an alcoholic and I never thought of this as possibly being related to his service. Ten years ago he was arrested for a DUI and it changed his life. He went in for rehab(privately-not through the VA) and after finishing his 28 day treatment he continued in therapy. It was fortunate for him that the therapist had done alot of work with Vietnam Vets and she diagnosed him with PTSD. He suffered a long time and if he were treated 20 years before this, perhaps he wouldn't have suffered so long. My point is, no matter what happens, running will not help anyone-least of all you. At least now there is a huge focus on returning Iraq and Afgan vets and PTSD. You are not alone and a medical professional is the only person you should be talking to. We are all here to support you and you will not get better "wishing this away" nor will "tomorrow be better". It may be better temporarily but in the end, you need to have professional help. Good Luck.
http://www.ncptsd.va.gov/ncmain/index.jsp
and also at the Gulf Vet VA site at:
http://www.oefoif.va.gov/
for any clues that may be of help, treatment under VA care may mitigate any Army response.
While in the civilian mode, check through the local Mental Health Hotline or the local United Way about agencies that offer PTSD services and meds. As all of us know, PTSD slams people, kids, women abused, etc., on the streets everyday in our America, so you might be able to get treatment from local non-profits.
Either way, sooner or later the date with the Man will come, so prep for that. Look up the Legal Aid Society, they are everywhere, they might be able to point you in the right direction when you are ready to start your way back.