I find that everyday everything I do is so dramatic. For as long as I have been bipolar, I am now just realizing why I hate alot of things. I cant remember the last time I really laughed a good one. I sit here and "OMG" "the Laundry" I will never get that done I have to walk all the way downstairs and i have no energy half the time to do anything whether it is a chore or for fun. I have lost that spunk, or the want to have a hobby or do something spontaneously. Boy I am fun lately. If you change my routine or anything I might throw a tandrum, lol. Must be the mood I am in this week. I lost my job, well that IS dramatic, but all the little things I could be enjoying I take to heart and end up not enjoying life at all. Not that I will enjoy the laundry. I also am a single mom, I love my quiet time, but I do get lonely, but it is so hard to have a relationship when you are bipolar.
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