I turn into a screaming bitch

i can be reckless dangerous horny very funny very full of energy ideas think im the best person in the world i do act really over the top i talk fast spend money i dont have travel to different countries i have the best fun when im manic but boy when i come back down i feel fuckin DEADLY

My experience is that I go on auto-pilot for days.It's like having a major caffeine over-dose.My mind races like wild horses,less sleep,irritable,excitable,speak over everyone and can't control my talking,pace up and down a lot,become indestructable,infinite amounts of confidence,work performance excels,say and do outrageous things without realising the consequences or even caring about them,basically I just think that I am like a god or something.I find it hard to get a grip of myself and can be extremely argumentative with everyone.Then at the end of it all I just crash for days/weeks and get a case of the severe fuckits.

i must be extreme, twice i have ended up in prison!!!!

wow everyone got honest. I get very sexually active, irresponsible about everything.My mom has had custody of my kids legally for years because of by illness. She is always there for them when I am out of my mind.I only drink when I am manic and the destructive behaviors always start with a jack and pepsi it seems.I have left my friends and family to turn to the streets of Cleveland with gangs and cocaine as the major attractions. I have totally quit good jobs just because someone(my boss) told me what to do. I am usually classified an extreme case by my doctors but I have been doing really good here lately .Better than ever before and I am not taking any of the BP meds that I have been on since diagnosed . I am almost proud of me. I just need to find a boyfriend.....not a fuck buddy

You should be very proud of yourself! This was what I was hoping to hear. Someone who is managing thier bp. I am going to do the same thing in the near future (my goal). My pd does not think I should ever go off meds but I don't think he really knows me. I visit him for 20 min once a month. We talk about how I'm feeling, hell I don't know. So I say something like ok, he smiles and writes me another script and I go. hmmmmmm

Greenhouse-I've ended up in trouble with the fuzz on many occassions before my bp was controlled with meds.
lisa-You just made me think about gangs.I used to be in a gang and when I think about it now I reckon I was manic during that time,but just didn't know at the time.

when I'm manic I become a nympho. And i spend way too much money. I'm all kinds of medicated now, though, so hopefully I can keep it in check.

to be honest, when i am manic i get horney as hell. when my wife is around i cannot keep my hands off of her. but when she is not i tend to masterbate alot. i will spend alot of money, but i have learned to control that. my meds seem to be loosing their effectiveness.