Life sucks as a B/P. I am new to this group and have alot to say. I have been writing about this topic for the last 15 yrs. Title is journey through the terminal me. I am a hospice nurse on disability, desperate to go back to work, no one wants me. their loss. Fckum. Husband family friends abandoned me. live alone with my dog in a condo with a neighbor who threatens me because he sees my fear. He is a PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE EGOMANIACAL ANGRY LITTLE MAN. He is on the board writes me up & fines me for every mistep. I haven't even been here a yr. I don't know what to do. Anybody got any suggestions. This man is a BASTARD from HELL. HELP! HELP!!!!!!! Trying to take my dog away for excessive barking.told me he was going to tape my dog barking. I do know that this against the law, can't afford a lawyer. Disability doesn't pay much. I can't wait to see what GOD has in store for him. It is always 10x's worse for people like him. I know there is a GOD cause I have seen what happens to people who torture others just because they can. I have seen it many, many times. Just got my taxes done & because I bought a condo & paid off my 29% credit cards cause the X left me with nothing. Lived off credit cards for a yr. couldn't make payments I used 1/2 of fckin x's 401(k)to clean up my credit now my tax bill is $50,000.00. I don't believe suicide is a sin cause this pain is so severe it takes guts & strength to go thru with it. As a hospice Nurse I know that death is not the worst thing that can happen. In a B/P's case life is the worst thing. I haven't been succesful with sewside. I do love my daughter, but I don't think she needs me at 23 yrs old. I thought I screwed her up, but she has much more strenth than me. In my heart I would never know what effect it would have on her long term. She holds the STOP SIGN. I know no one gives a shit what happens to me. I have no money except enough to pay my bills.Now this. GOD will send help but WHEN is the question? Sorry beeps hugs mite not help here. Thanks in advance if you wanted to send 1. I just want the pain to go away & no matter what it never does, just gets worse nothing left (or right) any B/P attorney.s out there? Anyone to talk to? Anyone to help? I am so fckn lost.
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