I found this website after searching for a good hour or two on different ways to kill myself. I dont have very many highs anymore... but wow the lows. Im outside of my body even, or trying to be. Every muscle in my body feels weak. I cried and cried into my pillow hoping it might hug me back, I donno. There is really no one in my life to talk to, they dont understand. When did I lose myself? Nothing in my mind but darkness and a dead end. I crawl up into a ball to realize that I am still here and cannot hide from my own mind. I absolutly hate my life... nothing but constant reminders of fail. Can I swear? Fcuking fcuk seroquel, effexor, lamictal... when will something just damned work. Can I plz feel?? PLZZZ something not so life sucking. MY G*d I need someone to talk to. Every time I get into this deep empty hole... i donno, I dont want to know what the downs will be like next time. They get worse. Help. LAWL>FCUK> >.<
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