i dont know what to do! i dont know how to feel. all day ive been crying and having panic attacks and basically just freaking out. i ended up chewing my bottom lip all to pieces and didnt even realize i had done it until i tasted blood. my thoughts are racing like there are a thousand different people screaming in my head at the same time and i cant even think straight. i dont know what to do! my husband wants to take me to the hospital and im gonna go cause i dont know what else to do. i would never hurt my family but i think im going to hurt myself and i wont even realize im doing it until its already done. in the past i have burnt myself with things and carved up my arms and legs with a razor and i kind of black out and dont even remember it until i snap out of it and realize that im burnt or bleeding. i just want it all to stop! im tired of living this way. im just so exhausted but i cant get the voices in my head to SHUT THE FUCK UP! what am i supposed to do? somebody help me please. im so scared and confused and lonely and i just want to make it go away. i just want life to go away. i want to dig myself a hole and bury myself in it. i cant take this anymore!
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