My story is sad. But there are a couple thing I have to get off my chest. I was pregnant with twins. A -girl and b- boy On December 18th 2012 my son passed but due to I was only 31 weeks and they could tell they was in separate sacs they wanted to keep baby b n as long as possible they watched her and I very close carried them to 37 weeks they was born January 28th 2013 girl weighing 6lbs and 6 oz 19 1/4 inches long. Baby b boy born sleeping 1 lb 2 oz 10 inches. It's been a little over 9 months since I have had them. And due to Christmas coming and then there birthday iv really been sad. One thing I have to get off my chest I have this sister n law that says things that really hurts like every time she sees. Twins or one of her friend is pregnant with twins that's all she want to talk to me about. I just don't get it she can't get pregnant herself they have tried Everything. U would think due to the fact she can't get pregnant and how bad that hurts that she would understand part of the pain I have for the loss of my son. It's like she keeps rubbing it in my face so and so have twins. I would love to say I DONT CARE!!! Don't u know how bad that hurts for me to hear about some one else having twins or that u seen b/g twins at the mall. I will never get the chance to have my twins at the mall or any where. I never even got to see my son or hold him. Due to my husband and I said he had been gone 6 weeks he wouldn't have looked the same so we opted not to see or hold him. My heart is torn because of that but I know deep down it was for the better. And some people act like I should already be over the fact I lost my son like they can't see him so he's not real. I'm blessed I have a health happy 9 month old lil girl that smiles and laughs at everything. She's to little to understand but sometimes I just hold her and cry and tell her how blessed she is to have a brother in heaven watching over her. Normal when I talk about her brother to her she smiles. They say twins have a bond no one can understand unless ur a twin I believe that when she smiles it's him saying mommy it's ok.. Thanks for letting me vent! And advise in how to deal with my sister n law. I know people will still have twins and life goes on . I just don't get why she must rub it in all the time and I'm talking ion a weekly bases if not more.
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