How are you today? For me today is not a good day but it isn't a bad day either. It's an eh day, as it call it. This year has been stressful and the year isn't over yet. All I can hope for is that next year is better, even by a little bit. I'm also tired. Just tired. Tired of things, tired of people, and plain old sleepiness. It's one thing after another piling on top of each other. Then when one this is gone, two more things get addes on. It seems like it is never ending. People keep saying, "be positive." "there are people worse off then you so don't worry about the small stuff." But how can I be positive when things are so negitive? But we are in different situations and we are different people. Sometimes I just want to scream in a crowded area so people can notice me and my pain. A lot of the time I feel like I'm invisable. Like not even my closest friends see me. At times I question my friendship with people. I don't know what to do. I know that I'm rainting and typing random things, but all of this has kept me up at night. Online is a great place because know one knows you and you can type anything. Don't get me wronge, this is all real. I'm just saying that on the internet you can type your deepest, darkest secrets and get things off of your chest. And websites like this, were you find people who are messed up like you are and you can relate.
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