Hi everyone! Today I feel really emotional… I need to share bc no one around understands my frustration.
Well, stupid AF showed up on Sunday... I am soo depressed right now it's not even funny. I'm trying not to let it bring me down but WHY isn't it happening.
It seems everybody around me is pregnant. A LOT of them don't really seem like they want or deserve it. A friend of mine is married to the worst player ever. They have a 16 month old daughter and she just got pregnant last month with their 2nd child. I work at a beauty salon and many of my clients are fairly young.. (approx.18 - 21 years old) and in the past few months 6 of them have said to me that they are pregnant!! No steady boyfriend or nothing… Now I'm thinking why the hell am I not getting pregnant?? We have a good loving family. This baby would be loved more than anything... I don't understand.
I know it's my fault. I'm ashamed to admit this and I'm crying soo hard while I'm writing this...I had 3 abortions when I was younger. I was going out with a guy for 6 years (from 15 to 21) and it was an abusive relationship. I got pregnant 3 times...3 times!! Can you believe this!!??! I know it may have been the right decision given my situation at the time. But I just know I'm being punished right now. I was soo wrong to do that. I don't know what to think anymore. I'm sorry I know a lot of you out there are against abortions. I just had to talk about it, nobody knows except my dh.
Now I’m married. I have loving husband, he is the best. We’ve been trying to conceive for almost 3 years and nothing. I blame myself and feel like it killing me.
I have been talking to this man off and on for years. I have always been ready to meet him just as friends to see where is goes.he says he like me and desires me,but I can't get him to follow through with meeting. He is not married ,never has been.He is 58 and we enjoy talking one the phone.We recently took a break from each other because of him not meeting me. So now I find out he is pursuring...
day 2-this is so hard waiting!!!!!Only my 4th time around and I hate this two weeks where I can’t tell anyone or tell for myself if it worked. Please send prayers!