Hi, my name is Violet and I'm new. I am having a really hard time with panic attacks-I can't drive because of it or work. I have also been having alot of flashbacks...at least i THINK they're flashbacks (can someone tell me if they are flashbacks or not?)..okay, mostly it's like this: sometimes I will flash back to when I was I'm guessing about 2-5 years old, I mean, I actually FEEL as if I am right back in that moment, a five year old, a two year old, I feel the way I know that I felt back then..in that moment I AM a child. The flashes are not really scary..yet..though I have felt scariness touching my mind at times, like there's something I'm trying to remember. I am not saying I was sexually abused (I have no memory of it) all I'm saying is the way I feel. I feel disconnected alot..I never lose time,,,exactly, once I was walking with a friend and I could feel myself going away, I'm not sure how long I was away or if I really was. It was like I was there and not there-does that make sense? I heard someone talking but didn't know who it was. It is just plain wierd. And then I have flashes of faces and a really bright room and a really dark room. I just don't know what's up
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