I've been dealing with trich since I was 12, when my parents divorced. I stopped as soon as someone at school noticed. I went 10 years without pulling until I started planning my wedding. It wasn't bad but got worse when I got pregnant and I've been pulling since (6 years). I joined this group because I don't talk to anyone in my life about this and I'm hoping to talk to people who can relate and maybe even meet people who have beat trich and learn what they did to stop it. Anyways, that's my story.
Why is my mood so easily dictated by the acceptance I receive from those around me? Honestly Snapmap could be used as a torture device, except instead it sends me into a spiral of torturing myself. Why am I so easily pushed towards cutting, something I know will only bring me more pain in the longrun than the temporary relief could even fathom, by some dumb shit like a text back. I place so much...
I have had a long history of depression . I have talked about my shoplifting and alcoholism. I have a history of silly communication in work. Saracatic texts. When people dont respond I sent an anoymous e mail to somebody in work giving out about an event. She figured out it was me.Im suicidal now. I have a son. Now im thinking of ending my life