The pulling is exactly on top of my head, I have a small percentage of bangs, so I have to tightly pull my hair back, in a pony tail, to not risk showing my baldness. I pull my har back so tight, that it has made my sometimes migraines, into severe migraines and the size of my baldness from pulling went from one hand, and unfortunately I measured today, to two fulls hands. I put my hands side by side and it was the exact measurements. I become mad at myself, I everyday I promise that today I will not pull, and everyday something happens that I still do, or should I say, give myself the excuse to pull. I look at my old pictures and they don't even look like me anymore. The baldness from pulling has tooken it's toll on me. I no longer feel pretty, I certainly cannot let my hair down in public, and I always carry a extra hair band, just incase. My blinds are always kept closed 99.99% of the time and when they aren't I always make sure that my hair is up and tightly, which really hurts. Another downfall to making my ponytail to tightly from pulling is, that my forehead as become larger and my hair in the front is thinning out. I have been pulling for 5 years, and that is thousands and thousands of hair, but I did stop for a couple of months and I saw not one change, just fuzz. If you pull, stop, it isn't worth losing your hair and your sanity.
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