it hurts so much. i love this one guy and i trust him with all of my heart. but i get so insecure that when i see pictures of him in the past with other girls who are extremely pretty and thin, partying with him and he's getting all close to them, it makes me feel so ugly. it just makes me wish that i could have long hair, eyebrows and eyelashes so i could be that beautiful for him. he has never given any other girl more attention than he has me but i get so scared that some day some girl way more gorgeous than me(which i think almost all girls are more gorgeous than me) will take him away from me and it makes me want to cry, which i have ended up crying before. of course i shouldn't worry about anything like this but since you have trichotillomania, you know what it's like to feel so insecure. i don't want to feel this way, what do i do? i try not to show my feelings about all of this because it's just pointless, i've already done it in the past and it didn't make me feel any better because in the back of my mind, i'm just incredibly ugly and fat. i hate it so much, i want to die..i'm so depressed.
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