I am not doing that well but I am not suicidal either. I just feel so alone and me being alone is a really bad thing - it makes me want to go back to asshole and I don't want to do that. But I am just so tempted, I was out on a job interview that went really well and had me happy but once I started driving past all these places that have memories connected to them, I wanted to drive to his parents house just to talk. I drove on past the street without looking back, but now I want to go on to his my space and see what he is doing. What is my problem - why cant I just put this asshole in the past! Now that I am this upset, after two years of not pulling - I've started again and I cant seem to find the will power like before to stop.
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