Sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep all i can say is without it we are open to all sorts of issues as i have found out lately im getting sick quite often.. I was on my way to a meeting the other day and had a funny sensation in my belly not a pain rather sensation and started to shake so i pulled over and vomited on the side of the road this was really bad i turned around and went started driving home phoned my boss who i think is fed up hearing about my problems he was very supportive and said no problem foe me to go home.. hard to explain but i started crying my body was aching and unlike in my previous life going home meant more torture but at least inmy mind i had an excuse to take loads of pain killers which turned me into a zombie occasionally dozing off for that much needed sleep was my body telling me something yes it was MY USE BY DATE IS UP but as per usual i got through this difficult day only to have to face another day of fu..ing toture. What amazes me is that people have been living with this stupid thing for 20 years. Im afraid of surviving and not living,I always said i wanted to go quickly i never want to suffer to get there where ever there is.after 20 years of been strong you then get a raise in volume what the hell man what the hell ive had it about 3months will i ever make 20 years like this i doubt it.
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