I believe right now I need all the serenity I can get my situation is this I stay in a rehabilitation home ,well right now im in the apartment program cause I went through the phases to get here,well anyways there is a lady that comes by and gives me my meds at night and I cant stand her she is such a liar and she always talking about other clients ,she tries to act like she is mother theresea but I know her game she tries to act like the victim and people say to me I can,t change her and I know I cant it,s just if your goin to work in an agency like she does working with and dealing with mentally ill people she needs to be tweaked, even alot of staff dont like her but they have to be proffessional,so they really cant say, alot of other clients want to talk about her in the day time but ask her to take them places at night im the kind of person if I have something against you I dont want anything from you and I know that sounds mean but Im not going to have someone disrespect me and think its okay,even when she comes in and acts likes she,s concerned I feel like saying save the bull ,when I see her or hear her it urks me so bad where I feel like i want to blow up so bad and I am not going to leave the program because of her I just dont know how to let go of it alot of other people including some staff want to turn there backs like nothings happening and it pisses me off ,she really gets down to the core issues of my nerves I dont say anything to her but like I said even if I hear her voice I get so angry she is so fake and she continues to do these things Im not the only client that feels that way Im the only one basically that wont play her game so I feel like im fighting this by myself ,I know am going all over he place I just cant get this angry feeling to go away when I see her and im not a mean person I will help people anyway I can this situation with this lady I want to blow up so bad it is messing with my serenity when I get these feelings I feel as if I am a bad person
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