Hi all. I've missed you and have been reading the posts, but felt at a loss of words to contribute much. Who would have thought - me at a loss of words! LOL Hubby hasn't been taking a full dose of meds daily for the last month, so I've noticed a decline - again. To top it off, he's had a beer now and then just to prove he could do it. Tuesday night he bottle of Black Velvet - his favorite and his down fall - and drank a 1/3 of it straight. He said the goal was to get drunk as he couldn't take the pain. He always complains of hurting everywhere when he tries to cut his depression meds. I made several phone calls and got some good advice the next day. I've joined an Al-anon website and have found comfort in it as it recognizes all that I believe. I have found it amazing that so much of literature shares the same things we share here. I didn't want to share this with anyone as his alcoholic behavior was our family secret. Secrets can make people sick and they did me, in the form of physical illness and anxiety. I am posting this today, not only for my own benefit but hopefully it will help someone else. We live on moment at a time, try to live an attitude of gratitude, and say STOP to the what if's that want to haunt us. No more than ever I must embrace these actions as well as my hourly prayers to stop myself from back sliding from where I came from. I think these actions apply not only to anxiety & alcoholsim, but to all problems life throws at us. We are strong, we are good people, and we can do survive with grace and kindness in our hearts and actions. Thanks for reading my thoughts today.
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