I know we are on better terms now, but I am still angry and hurt by all the things you said and did to me in the past. I think about them and all the other events that have happened in my life when I look at myself in the mirror and feel disgusted with you. What goes through my mind is why you are ugly and why you will always be unhappy. I tell you to stop, because I know once you start you will never be able to stop. That list can go on forever, and when you think of this you start to sink into a hole. A hole you were able to pull yourself out of once, a hole you never want to go back into, a hole that if you returned to again you may never come out of. You need to stop pushing away your emotions and accept reality, you are amazing and a wonderful person. You can be the person you want to be, but you need to stop hiding behind your anxiety and your pain. You are that person you were before, but a better version of your previous self. You have learned things about yourself that you wouldn't have learned without this pain. You can get over this, you will get over this. So please don't say goodnight to me by saying all the things you hate about me, say goodnight by telling me all the things you love about me. With this you will save yourself from red eyes, stuffy noses, sleepless nights, and most of all you will save yourself from this despair.
I posted on here a few days ago explaining what happened to me when I was 10 I got a lot of feedback saying I should tell someone however I don’t even know how I would start the conversation. Who I would tell. Who would trust me . Someone please give me advice on who to tell. I thought about telling a teacher instead of my parents but I think teachers by law have to tell parents if they know...
I am new to these types of things. And as of recently I was ok with not thinking about what happened to me with my abuse. I was 11 and my uncle tried to rape me, my stepfather molested me when I was 13, and then I was raped at 17 by a guy that I had known and dated but left. The case against the guy I dated got dropped because alcohol and weed were involved. I feel like without having any kind of...