I know all about the way your feeling,Don't get me wrong I have a good support system that understands,But my life has been 1 step forward and 10 back for so long,I feel so worthless,my credit sucks big ones.In process of going bankrupt,but that takes money,I'm running around with a mouth full of rotten and infected teeth.I can't get the money to pull them.I've never been one to give up,but No pain pills a mouth that is killing me a painful hip from falling,I'm really over whelmed right now,I can't sleep to worried about everything.Smoking,like a chimmy and drinking my diet soda.That is my comfort.If only you know if only. I'm good at hiding how I feel. and I best at cheering others on.I still have a few good things about me. I so need to win a small lottery,not to be rich but to fix everything thats wrong,my female plumbing doesn't work and I have no nipples.I have a good heart,Dig around sunny you can surely find something good about your self. If I can You can.

Sunny...YOUR PAIN is the ONLY PAIN that NO ONE else can UNDERSTAND! YOUR PAIN IS IMPORTANT!!

No one else can feel the way you feel. No one else can understand what you go through. A Dx is just that...a diagnosis. There are people on this site who have had Lumbar Fusion surgery for a diagnosis of MILD Degenerative Disc Disease. They had the the surgery because of the way their body reacted to the issue. MILD DDD is --in terms-- cake in comparison to someone else's diagnosis. It is not about diagnosis--it is about YOU and YOUR PAIN. Own that...you have earned the right to complain, to feel sad or mad and to seek pain treatment. There is not one thing wrong with that.


HUGS to you my friend...and I would be happy to kick that kid for you! I would kiick him and take away his Christmas Presents and I might even steal his college fund to avenge you!

Hun,

First of all, here you can come and be yourself, have a pitty party, cry, scream, vent, or whatever it is that you want to do! We understand, we are there with you, and to say that your pain is less than ours, is crazy! No ones pain here is better than yours, we are ALL in pain, and we respect and listen to you, because we know.

Parents these days don't care if their children cuse, run over people or misbehave, most parents that I see; will rather be drinking a beer and smoking cigarettes while their kids terrorize everyone! It is sad

Today take it easy, get yourself a warm bath with epson salts, and do nothing but relax. And remember, we are here for you, your pain matters!

Big Hugs,

Sunny, I'm so sorry you're feeling so bad. And don't feel bad about not being upbeat--you feel what you feel! I hope and pray that you feel better soon.

Hugs,
Theresa

so sorry sweetie sending big warm gental hugs lorrie

Hope you get to feeling better soon

Rant away. What are friends for? I hope you are feeling better today.

You guys are tooo much!!! Gues I have been in "mysterious" pain for so long that I devalue myself. What a wonderful group. Now I am crying happy tears!

Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you

I followed doctors directions and took special meds for these situations. I will tell you guys this. The big board knows nothing. I am supposed to be in a wheel chair. I have no cartalidge (sp) between the bones in my back. One wrong move could paralize me (sorry can't spell that either).

I thought about it, tried it, hated it. I decided that if and when it happens, then and only then will I use the chair. Besides at Disney World some ignorant fool started yelling, "she can walk, she can walk, she can walk" one time when I stood to get off a ride so the attendants did not have to lift me. Can you imagine????
I prayed that he never had to know what it's like to be in a chair when you can actually walk. (Honestly, I still have to use it for places as big as Disney. I still hate it. BUt I have to consider my family a little. By the time 10am comes, I am walking so slow that we can't get anywhere.)

Again, I am moved down to my socks by the kindness of all of you. Happy tears are still salty but they taste so much sweeter on the tongue. They are more healing.

Wish I could help you guys as much as you have helped me these past few weeks. It's been nothing BUT pain, then a little more PAIN, and then for a change some more PAIN.

Can we have a reunion when we all get to heaven? What a party that will be - huh. Ewach of us in new bodies that are healed and young again.

God bless you all!!!!!!! You are really special people!
Sunny

I have to say a little special thanks to some of you for your special words of comfort.

Janosborn – I was thinking “if only my family understood”. Thanks for sharing the perfect words to get rid of useless energy wasting thoughts. They just robbed me of me!

Superduck – What can I say? Your words are always such sweet music. I needed someone to yell just those words so I would hear and listen. How perfectly PERFECT. I saved it so I can read is over and over.

Tipper – I did exactly that. Made people pick things up, used my heating pad and took a whirlpool bath. Yep, I needed to take care of me today. How did you know?

Tjhof – I have to work on letting me be me. I always think that the ones who see the sunny side are way better. Thank you for the help. I am making that my New New Year’s Resolution.

Minnieha – I can feel the hugs as I write to you. There is something special about how you always say something even though you suffer. Where are hiding your wings?

Rockysowner – Hope is back. And thanks I am feeling better than this morning.

1littleb – I read your comments to others. I know you really mean those words. I can’t thank you enough.

All of you are wonderful friends who make it safe to be real.
Thank you
Sunny (for real Sunny even though typing this is making me sore again so I have to go now)

I am so sorry that happened! Hugsssss to you! and don't worry, I think most people in here LOVE pity parties and want to join in, me too!!! :) They are good for us!!!! and its a great place to get out some feelings, I feel the same way alot, i'm the youngest of six kids and all five of my older siblings dont have a thing wrong with them, they don't even need glasses! I feel like I got shafted in the gene pool, so naturally they don't understand and get annoyed with me that I am not healthy and energetic like them, even though I am younger. I find myself going out of my way to act happy and painfree around them, which upsets me.

Always feel like you can be real, especially here, and you can always vent to me, Rest up and take care of yourself!!! :)

That's why we're here, we all have our good days and our bad days. Your pain is just as important as anyone elses so don't cut yourself down by compairing it. I'm glad it helps you to be able to vent and get replies and support from such good people. Like I said, that's why we're here. I hope your feeling better.

Whirrrrrllllpoooollllll.... wow, I am envious. I am so glad you have one as they can take the edge off.

As for the wheelchair, I hate the idea as well though I have been tempted by those mechanical rides with baskets they have in some stores. I fear that my dream trip to Disney with family would require a chair, hopefully a motorized one that my grandson and I could take turns at the controls lol. Oh wait, not that I'd let him knock into anyone!!!

Sunny, no thanks are needed. For better or worse we are partners in crime even when the crime is against one of us.

I just wanted to tell you that I am so sorry that this happened to you. I have three kids that are 12,10, and 4. Not one of them would think of knocking someone over. If they happened to bump into you, they would stop and ask you if you were ok, apologize and then ask if there was something that they could do to help you. They know that people may not look like they are in pain, but they still could be. I have taught them that there are many people in the world like mommy or worse and to never treat someone any other way than the way that they want people to treat them. That they need to look out for other people besides themselves. I really hope that you feel better and not suffer any longer. Please feel free to come here and voice your feelings and vent all you need to. We have all been there and understand completely. We are your friends and will always do what we can even if it is just to listen.
Many hugs and lots of support,
Beck

SunnyMorn: You gave so much comfort to a newbie on the Big Board that had almost the exact same thing happen and then when she posted, got "mowed" over again, if you know what I mean!! I watched it all go down and tried to help too. You and Celestial were WONDERFUL!!!!