when living gets to painful, when the thoughts inside get too loud, feeling very worthless, feel like I dont fit inn anywhere, self hate grown enormously, self confidence disappeared, these thoughts of ending my life so loud, non stop lately, am I near? other times i felt this way it was planned, but recently it came from nowhere suddenly. Its on my mind all the time now, no matter whats going on, on my inside thats all thats running thru my mind. Im keeping as busy as I can but nothing is covering up the thoughts that constantly running in my mind. On the outside im wearing that fake smile, but inside is the real me and from my own self i cant hide.
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