Theres so much going on i my life, like usual but things seem to be getting worse. I'm usually able to be positive but Im struggling to be positive, Im doubting that things will get better. I know that God will not give me more than I can bare. But I have so much pain that I've been covering, and it all comes out at one time. So much going on inside my head,thoughts of just taking the pain away. Today as I walked to my house I though I walking straight into traffic as a semi truck rode pass. Thoughts of jumping off the bridge into the lake. The scary thing is I can actually picture my body trashing across the road or floating in the water. I see myself dead at times, just a corpse in a crowd of ppl. Idk y im having these thoughts but they've come and havent gone away. I feel that if I dont hurt myself that I will hurt some1. Im so angry and im hurting Im tired of this situation!
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