did the 100 cuts too. then though if i do one more, i will never stop. gave my pdoc my stanley knife/boxcutter on monday, symbolic but did help a bit. he also downloaded mozart to mp3 player which is a help. am finding it really difficult as not only want desperately to cut but want to finish it off completely. have reached day four cut free though which is something i guess.
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