Everything is going wrong. I don't know what to do or how to be ok now. I can't make this hurt go away. What do I do? I don't know how much more I can take. I went onto a teen helpline and the lady said stop playing around. I left and started crying.
I try and I try, but nothing changes. I wonder if I’m really trying or am I just going through the motions. I’m so tired of all the nonsense. I can’t seem to catch a good day. Every time I think I’m seeing the light, it goes dark. I started praying again. Something I haven’t done in many years. I’m wondering if that was really a good idea. Only because I feel like it’s making me...
I still feel like I don't want to be alive. I wish and prefer that I could fall asleep and never wake up. I hate the way that I live and how I spend my life and I wish I was gone. I never have enought time. My headaches come every day and I walk in a complete fog.