I lost my son sammy Nov. 19th 2006 and I completely lost it, I havent been the same since. It's not a topic that comes up often. When it happened I went straight back to work and spent every waking moment there , I tempararly talked to my other kids and even let my friends keep them for almost 2 months because I refused to go back to my house . I just couldn't handle losing him . I still can't handle losing him, I stll want to hold him again just one more time!!! I never dealt with it and now I have to !!! I had a daughter last July and she had health problems so I had to stay home and I was always running so I never had a chance to think about it but now shes better and everything is slowing down so now its like it just happened all over again and I have no choice but to think about it and I cant handle it . I still have all his clothes unwashed so I can still smell him . I want to go back to work and every time I try I get sick, for the past month I have been sick and the harder i try to get away from the thought of losing him I get sick again and have to stay home. Can someone please help?
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