Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS) Support Group
Sudden infant death syndrome (SIDS) is any sudden and unexplained death of an apparently healthy infant aged one month to one year. SIDS is responsible for roughly 50 deaths per 100,000 births in the US.
my siena may past away on 4/12/08 from what we think is sids she was 8 months.we are still waiting final results...i was a stay at home dad do to a work slow down and spent the last 5 months with my little girl every hour of the day.the day it happened i went out for a late lunch with a buddy and give siena/mom some alone time.she stopped breathing on a late afternoon nap when i was out.when i got to the e.r she was lying lifeless on a table i ran beside her and cried in her ear fight it baby fight.i was to late my first reaction was to grab scissors and cut my wrist but i was attacked by doc,nurses and police.my baby was to little to be alone she was never even left with a sitter,i just wanted to join her on her journey.i have since been sent home from observation and we buried our little angel...my mind is just going crazy with thoughts-what if i didn't go out,what if she napped at 3not5,what if she went to childrens hosp instead of the nearest one,did her mom do something wrong[i know she didn't].why can't i remember her face,why am i not crying more she was my world.why do i want to have another baby i just loss my siena may,what did i do wrong in the past....my head hurts so bad my heart is dead my stomach feels as though someone stuck me with a pitchfork and is now turning it.why hasn't siena come to me in more dreams is she mad at me...i'm sorry for rambling on....i just miss my little scootch so much i want to die.....if it were not for being a sin that would keep me from seeing her again i think i would try to take my life.....please has anyone else had these feelings? Siena May's daddy.
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oh hun i am so so sorry i lost my daughter 14 months ago to SIDS...these feelings are completly valid..i'm not going to say normal because it is not normal to bury our children!..please know i am here if you need to chat or vent anytime..again i am so sorry x
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I said the same thing to Nathan when I walked into the ER. "Fight for momma baby" We are not suppose to bury our children. It gets easier, not better just easier. Your heart got ripped out and a piece of you died. I've said this before and I'll say it again, take it minute by minute, then graduate to hour by hour. You do get through this. If you need to talk I'm here
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I felt exactly the same way. If it weren't for my daughter, I don't think I'd be here. It hurts so bad to lose our babies we just don't know what to do. There's no right answer here. Lean on Siena's mom. She's feeling what you're feeling. If you need more help, any of us are here and ready to help you.
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