I have been looking for a message board for a few weeks and couldn't find one. I think this board is set up nicely. I am not positive if Alyssa died from SIDS or not but her death resembles SIDS as I found her not breathing even though she could just lift her head. She was sedated for an MRI that day and after her first nap she just didn't wake up. I had just seen her moving an hour prior. That was the day before my birthday. Needless to say that was the worst day of my life. I still wish everyday that I could just have her back. I found out 2 days later that she had nothing wrong with her back (which is why she had the MRI). She was a perfectly healthy, happy and very loved 6 month old girl. She was already full on crawling and so proud of herself. She was such a mommy's girl. I will forever miss her. People say it gets better with time. It's only been 1 1/2 month for me but it has just gotten worse. The longer I go on without her the more of the reality sits in. I don't want it to be real. Sorry I will keep repeating that. I can't quit thinking it so I always say it to anyone that will listen. I hope to offer some support to the board too. Thanks for listening.
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