MY HEART HUTRS WHEN I READ YOUR STORIES. IT MAKES ME MISS MY ANGEL EVEN MORE. I WANT TO HAVE ANOTHER BABY BUT I'M SO SCARED THAT THERE WOULD BE RESENTMENT BECAUSE IT WOULDN'T BE BELLA. MY LITTLE GIRL WAS ONLY 2 1/2 MONTHS OLD AND ITS ONLY BEEN SINCE MARCH 6TH WHEN SHE PASSED.I CRY EVERYDAY AND I DON;T WANT TO LEAVE MY HOUSE. I'M SO MAD AND ANGRY AND I JUST WANT TO SCREAM. I WANTED TO LAY DOWN AND FALL ASLEEP LIKE MY DAUGHTER DID. BUT I HAVE A 5 YEAR OLD.I HAVE TO PULL MY SELF TOGETHER BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW.ALL HER THING ARE STLL RIGHT THERE. I JUST NOW TOOK THE BASSINET OUT OF MY ROOM CAUSE IT KILLED ME TO SEE IT. WOULD IT BE WRONG OF ME TO KEEP HER THINGS CAUSE I WANT ANOTHER BABY? ALL THESE UNOPENED UNUSED THINGS? I'M SO LOST AND WELL.....I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY
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