Well, Aiden's 1 yr. angel date is comming up at the end of this month and I've just been a total wreck inside. I feel like I'm a fake because I act ok on the outside but inside I feel like I'm falling apart. It's like I'm living the whole thing all over again. I thought I was doing so good trying to help myself through this and now I feel like I just took 1 million steps back! My family wants to come up for his angel day and do something. I guess they're trying to keep my mind occupied, but I feel like why are we celebrating? I lost my son and you want to go out to dinner?! Maybe it's just me I don't know. How do you get through this? I mean I know I will but it doesn't seem that way. Did anyone else feel this way before their 1 year angel day?
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