In my mind and heart and have to believe that God took Deven home, it brings me comfort. However others say "I don't think God just does things like this, and sometimes things just happen by nature." I have been in a dilema since Deven died about what I do and don't believe. I guess if I believe that God took Deven then there must be a damn good reason I lost my baby. But if God didn't take Deven then I feel like "what did I do, what didn't I do, what could I have done?" Yet I also feel like what did I do so wrong or what didn't I do right that God took my Deven from me? I guess I'm confused, anyone else feel like this?
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