I loss my child in may of 2006 and in september 2006my best friend got pregnant I got really upset being around her and having to hear all of the baby talk ( also she was the same age as me when I got pregnant) but when she started doing stupid things like drinking and smoking and usind other drugs I lost it. Her justification was that everyone else was drinking around here and it wasn't fair that she couldn't. So I stopped talking to her through out the pregnancy now that she has the baby I can't really ignore her anymore ( she needs a baby sitter) but it seems like everyone in my town is getting pregnant I don't want to be emotional around everyone, but it's not fair why do they (most of them are still in high school) get healthy children to love and have thier parents take care of them when they want to go party or sleep or take a bath. Why did my daughter who I took care of by myself, who I quit partying for who I quit talking to the majority of my friends for. why did she have to be taken from me, she was loved more than anything in this world.I actually know the answer because I was a bad mother and I couldn't even feed my own daughter so I proped up her bottle and as a result she died I would like to blame god but it's my own fault. So every bad guilty painful feeling I feel is deserved
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