What are some of things that help each of you get through each and everyday? I am a project lady. I have to keep moving and finding things to do to keep my mind and body busy. My son has been gone 5 months tomorrow and my back yard looks amazing. I live in the Valley of the Sun and I work outside everyday. Crazy yes I know. I read and pray alot. I listen to up lifting music. I bought a CD from the dollar store that just has bagpipes playing it helps sometimes. I take time to just sit and be still. What do you guys do when you start to feel angry? I am really good at putting on my game face for those people around me who really don't want to hear about my sob story. I sometimes feel like this is okay that we will be okay. Then sometimes not so much. I have so many blessings around me. Do you ever feel like you just miss placed the baby? Like looking for him? Or waiting for the door bell to ring and someone saying ahh just kidding gottcha! I have moments of regret deep regret. He was my baby #5........did I hold him enough? Everyday wondering If I was a good Mother to him? I tried my hardest to be the best Momma I knew how to be. I sometimes feel guilty over all the free time I have now days. I know what i should be doing. I want another baby but holly sweet tart that is a terrifying thought........does lighting strike twice? I mean lets hope not! I am sure it has though. I miss baby and I am striving to live each and everyday to the best of my abilities. I hope I don't have to live the rest of my life in this fog of forgetfulness. What do you guys do to get through each day?
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