HI, guess I need alot of hugs right now ,one of those days,I have did pretty well toughing these bad days for the most part, but dam you do reach a point where you wonder is there a life for me out there. I divorced my husband last year, been apart 18 months, I miss him at times and once in awhile we talk, not about our relationship,he hates talking about feelings and was hurt as well as me about the divorce, I was with him 13 yrs. married 6 , I got sick of being without intiamcy and sex and I carried all the weight and he felt like a brother not a lover, in addition to that I sold the house ,bought a cheaper townhouse, because I also lost my job with a severance, I have 3 more months of pay and insurance, I had a heart attack in Jan. I do take effexor for depression , Im 55 yrs old have a few friends, 2 sisters that I talk to alot, one grown son I see once a month but talk to on the phone, I miss going to work, laid off in sept. and I do not like where I live, I try everyday to be positive and count my blessings, find projects, go to lunch with friends, read ,I have a dog, but I havent had a normal love life in yrs and need that, I do alot of things alone ,movies,shopping, spend time with sisters kids, its been 3 yrs, since I have just felt like a woman, I am attractive, exercise ,independant and a normal person, Ive had counseling and was told I did the right thing in divorcing my husband because he wasnt a husband just a buddy that had alot of benefits, I was married the first time for 20 yrs to a good provider and the guy was the love of my life, been divorced from him for 19 yrs. he was a abusive alcoholic, now where do I turn to find a life? I can be alone ,that doesnt mean I like it all the time, just a date would be nice, sorry for the long vent, living alone ,you dont always have a ear and friends are busy so I try not to talk about this alot to them ,they dont relate, any advice , 3 yrs, and still looking for companionship