i am just so stressed out just been thinking about so much shit lastely. people at school saying that i should haev killed myself. and thinking about my mom and dad and brother and my baby. i just can't take much more of this stress it is just way to much. there is only so much a person can take. right? i don't know maybe i am just going crazy. i got so mad at my dad last night when i woke up and pictured him raping me again i put a whole in my wall. i have never been that mad before. is a father suppose to do this to his daughter. i don't think so but some of it was my fault. i don't know i am just lossing it
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