I really need some help. First of all, just to get this out, because God knows I need to, I'm bisexual. Only four people know from my own mouth. Everyone at my school for the past year has been spreading rumors about me being a lesbian/bisexual. I don't really care for anyone there to know, I just don't appreciate them assuming things and judging me for it. I've been struggling with telling my family for a few years. Each time I get the courage to do it, I overhear my dad say something about religion or my mom crack some gay jokes. I'm so nervous to let them know. Each time I think I can do it, I can only think of the worst. To make matters worse, I am involved with someone that neither of my parents would approve of, simply because she's a girl. My main concern is that my parents will be upset because they assume that since I'm bisexual, I'll end up settling down with a woman, and they won't become grandparents. Anyway, moving on. The way that I take the stress off most of the time is I meditate, light incense, play guitar, blast music, do some glowsticking, take a long bath, whatever I can. Lately, I've been so stressed, I can't take the thought of being disowned or rejected by my family out of my mind long enough to relax. The best way to get it out of my head is to be with the girl that I'm seeing, but I can't really see her as often as I'd wish. Does anyone have advice on how I could get this off of my mind just for a day, even?
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