Trying to deal with my stress. Something I'm coming to finally realize I have problems with. I think that I over think every little think and make big deals out of the littlest. I link an emotion to everything it seems. I have been dealing with stress probably since highschool if not earlier in my life. Finals can be linked to this coming up through highschool. I have an issue with failing at anything and this causes me to over think and then come the "what if's". I was diagnosed with bipolar when I was 15/16 give or take I did take medicine for it, but now that I am married and older I know longer acknowledge the fact that that might be an issue and causing anger from which I link to stress. My husband and I are now TTC and so I have to really learn how to relax and manage my anger and stress better. The littlest thing stresses me and the the littlest thing seems to anger me. I feel that if you don't have control over you emotions then you don't have control over yourself. Maybe I'm just an emotional person. I myself describe myself as impatient, highstrung, want everything done yesterday, and a perfectionist. I can get angry it seems in less then 1.5 seconds and flip out in just that amount of time. It's hard for me to get ahold of myself durning this time. My anger towards whatever issue can last for days or hours depending. The stress comes from overthinking. Which causes my stomach to get upset or it goes to my neck. Sometimes I think I have OCD b/c I obessed over an issue thinking that if i put something somewhere it's going to disappear knowing it doesn't move. I'm a worrywart on top of that............ahhhhhhh i'm a conflicting person I suppose. OCD, anger, stress, impatient, perfectionist, highstrung, and want everything done yesterday. Am I nutz????? I do feel I need to get a hold of myself before I have children and I don't feel I am as bad as I use to be. However I think that my stress and anger could cause serious pregnancy issues. I have thought about seeing a doctor, but I'm not sure what to say and if he will diagnose me with something! I don't want to be diagnosed b/c that would mean something was actually wrong. Yeah, know?
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