Im havin alot of problem's with stress latley alot to do with my parent's it really hit me hard today, though when it came with a mixture of depression, it started with me and my mother arguing over my weekend plans and the weather, and i got agrivated and thought of the thing's that happened in my past, and they jsut built up more and more.I use to have to pack my stuff i could fit in a bag at time's so i could just leave, for 2 hours with my mom after one of her and dad's fights where she threatened to leave him,a nd then go back, and i would have to deal with them fighting, at time's when i was around 8 my brother which means more to me in this world then anyone, got into a fight with my dad and they actually had a fist fight, and with him at the age of 17 decided to not move with us, and he left the family, my mom use to drink everynight after work, and on one ocasion i remember we were washing the dog, and i didnt have a good grasp of him, and he ran by my breaking the tiolet seat on the way by, and my mom then got mad, threw the toilet set off the toilet, and on the floor and yelled at me for a good 10 min's and grounded me for it. Then me and my dad had a fist fight over a incedent i cant remember the reason, then i had the pleasure of finding out that my dad isnt my biological dad, on my 15th birthday, because they wanted to change my last name, and that hurt and still does hurt, and now im living with my grandfather in WV with them in Florida, and ever since i found out my dad wasnt my REAl Dad ive started to drift more and more, and i try to act ok, and i guess it work's cause shes asked me a few time's why im not around the family more, and why i seem distant, but idk waht to do, with everything thats happened, and when me and her fight, it gets me deeply stressed and depressed, and i smelt pot when i walked in her room the other day, and that dont help any either, its just gotten to where im close to never wanting contact with them agian once i leave home,. and i dont know waht to do, or how to handle all the feeling's?
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