Before we were married my husband cheated on me more than once and it really made me feel like crap. I know that now that we're married he only wants to be with me. We have been together since we were only 15 but really my problem is that I can't let it go. I constantly feel that I must not have looked good enough, done something right, maybe I just wasn't as exciting as they were. But this stays with me. I'm always just waiting for him to throw me away once again. It's gotten to the point that I won't allow ANY nudity at our house at all. So all movies that we watch have to be checked out first. We can't go anywhere that there could be scantaly clad woman. On top of that I've noticed myself really loathing other woman if they're attractive. My messed up brain see's them all wearing a sign that says Husband stealer. I know that it's not right to think this way I just don't know what I can do. Tomorrow is our 4yr wedding anniversary but we've been together for 10 yrs. Now we have children as well. He is really trying to make up for what he did in the past, he feels like an idiot. I can really see him trying, he does nothing to make me feel like he's going to get rid of me for another better looking woman that hasn't sprouted children. I just feel like I'm no longer worth it. I don't know what to do.
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