People tend to think when you are a strong person, you can hadle everything and never break. Well I'm breaking. The only things that keep me going are my faith, and my kids. My kids need me, I have to be strong for them, but everyone else leans on me all the time. My Husband Is Bipolar, my Mother who lives with me is Bipolar, my Father is bipolar, my Brother is bipolar, and my Daughter has Social Anxiety Disorder. I understand they are all sick and I for the most part, are happy to be there for them, but now I'm going through life threatening health problem, and there is no one for me to lean on. I am having problems at work. My co-workers know what I'm going through, but all they care about is stoping me from getting a promotion (nice people), and that's only half of it. If I wrote everything that's going on in my life right now as we speak It would take me hours. I cry when I'm driving home from work every day, and I pray so I can have the strength to get through the next day. I pains me to see that nothing really matters to anyone but me. People really only care about them selves. I have alot of people in my life and yet I feel so alone. I'm finding it hard not to be angry at everyone around me right now, because I feel invisible. They all see what I'm going through but I guess my problems are not as important as thier needs and wants. I'm tired of being angry, and hurting, and crying. I've lived my life by giving to others, and helping others, but somewhere along the line I gave me away. I thought God only gives you what you can handle, well I'm breaking and no one notices. I really can't handle any more hardships, problems, sicknesses, ect.... My sholders are broken.
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