I feel so alone, my husband does not understand how strong my pain is. No matter how many times I explain this to him, he thinks that Im making things worst for me. This weekend we went away with the family, on Saturday we cut my dad a cake, but I didnt celebrate with him. What happened was that some family came over. One of them is like 5 months pregnant, and two of them came with their newborn babies. I could not be around then, so I went to the room and locked my self there until everyone left. I felt so much pain and cried, I cried because everyone was happy all they talked about was babies, and here I am almost 7 weeks since I lost my daughter. It is so unfair. My husband says that I just want everyone to feel bad and this is why I act this way. Says that our family will break because of me. Says that I should move on, that this has happen to others not just us. Says that Im wishing bad things to other because I say that it makes me feel sad and angry to see other pregnant woman. He is so wrong, I do not wish this on any one, no one should have to go through this, but I feel so sad to see them and see me with empty arms. I dont know why he cant understand my pain. Sometimes I just feel like Im not needed here, that all I do is carry everyone with my pain. He says I should not be telling my family how I feel, that that makes things worst. Thanks everyone for listening, I needed to get this out. Also, does it look bad that I would want to try for another baby? My husband and I feel that, looking foward to a live baby will help with our healing process. Dont know if he still feels the same though, since he is upset
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