Do you have kids? I get that question all the time and its so hard, I have no idea what to say. Makenzie was my firstborn and she passed away two and a half months ago. I want her to be recognized and yet I want to protect her. I want to tell everybody about my Makenzie; my beautiful little angel who changed my life forever, but then I feel by telling everyone that I am putting her on display. Also, I dont feel like talking about her to people unless they really care about her. People can say hurtful things too. If I tell people that I did have a little girl, but she passed away, then I get, Oh, it was for the best or You guys are young, you will have plenty more. I know I probably can have more, but I wanted her. So sometimes I say no, I dont have kids, and then I feel so guilty. I feel like I am not acknowledging her and its not fair. Or I sometimes am ok with saying I dont have kids to strangers and then they ask why. They say that I should get working on some kids and that kids are the best thing in the world. Dont they think I know that? Now I am about to start a new job and I know that topic is inevitable and I am dreading it. As much as I try to prepare myself, I can never come up with a good response.
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