So I have been back to work now for a month and I am so glad that I am. It feels like this everything is just a bad dream. I have a picture of Ainsley on my desk so I can see her ever minute of everyday. The people at work have been really supportive and helpful, and I am really greatful to them for that. But, on July 22 we hired 2 new people, and I figured before they ask who that baby is in the picture I thought I would fill them in.(They would here me talk about it to other co-workers and I didn't want to feel awkward) So last Wednesday one of the girls came and told me that she was pregnant and she was about 9 weeks along. For one I don't care that she is pregnant and I feel like she was just rubbing it in. On Thursday she came into work and came right up to me and said "Oh My God, I'm cramping what do I do?" How the heck was I supposed to answer that? I was so taken aback that I almost reached over my desk and slapped her because that is how she made me feel. I just told her a couple of days prior to that that I had lost my baby at 38 weeks. How can someone do that to a person. Needless to say I have not talked to her since and I have been ignoring her ever since. She still comes up to me everyday and tells me how she is feeling, it takes every ounce of me not to tell her off. Today I booked it out of the office in a hurry so I didn't have to walk with her to the train. I really don't know if I'm the one being rude or if I have the right to act the way I am acting.
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