Tonight I cried on my son's shoulder. He's 3 1/2. He shouldn't have to see/feel my sorrow, but tonight I just miss our Angel Sterling so much. He doesn't judge, doesn't try to fix it, doesn't realize how much I hurt...but somehow he knows how to comfort. His little arms around my neck. His sweet, sweet words "We will forever ever ever ever ever have Baby Sterling in our hearts". Why do I feel like I took advantage of his innocence? What is wrong with me??? Sometimes we do what we have to in order to make it through the moment I guess...thankgoodness for my moments with him. I shouldn't be spending them crying on his shoulder, I should be stronger than that. How can I help it?? Most nights I can keep it together...tonight, I couldn't.
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