I lost my son aiden march 4th 2008 i was 37 weeks pregnant. I decited to cremate him so he coul be at home with me and my fiancee me and shane already have one healthy son. Aidens our second son. We decieted not to get an autopsy I also decieted not to hold him after my cesarian. I just couldn't do it I was so afraid I wouldn't be able to let go if they brought him to me. I regret that decision with all of my heart. I have pics of him but I wish I would of held him. I feel like almost everyone around me except shane feels like I should be "over it already" I feel as if I'll never be the same. After i lost aiden i got really sick myself and almost died. Due to complications with having him and infections. I feel as if I obsesse about it daily. I feel unconfortable bringing it up to family and friends b/c I feel as if there sick of hearing it.
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