My fiance and I lost our little boy Tiberius on Friday October 15th. He was stillborn at 37 weeks gestation due to an umbilical cord accident and possibly a underdeveloped placenta. The first month was a haze, so numb but the last month, especially the last few days have been so hard. I feel every emotion, everything makes me cry. We cleaned off his Christmas trees that we put on his grave today and I lost it. I have sought counseling and other forms of help and continue with their support but but even with it I feel I am feeling even more depressed and I just don't know if its normal to feel this horrible. I don't know how it can get better. I feel very alone as no one around me understands the depth of my pain, expect the other girls in my bereavement group who have also had stillbirth's. Its just hard some days to do anything and know who or where to turn to. I know everyone says it takes time but until then what do I do? I never thought instead of bringing my baby home I would be burying him, it just doesn't seem fair.
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